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Shattered hearts

 My Heart is feeling very weary these days.  I have read multiple articles of children being killed by a parent. The parent who seems to be calm and collected to the rest of the world, except to the one who is running for that person. The one who asks for help to get to safety is the one who is usually looked as crazy because he/she has emotions. Since when is it ok to punish someone who showed emotion when they were scared? If someone is scared for their kids' lives, they aren't thinking about staying long enough to "get proof", let alone to make sure it's "ENOUGH" proof to satisfy the law.  I understand both parents have rights to their children, but since when was the parent's right better than the child's right for safety?  How often have you heard in the news lately of the death of the child/ren, spouse and themselves? This time it wasn't even the spouse. It was a supervisor at a church who was shot before the father killed himself. Who
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 It's been quite a while since I have made a post here. A lot of life has happened and I am not in a place to share too much right now. But I will share these unedited pictures because I have yet to get an editing software yet, but I am hoping to start up my photography company again soon! So, I will share these sweet pictures I took of my boys at Myrtle Beach last April. But as I do, I have a question I want to ask. Have you ever heard a song and immediately have this image of what this song is saying and come to tears? Yep, this is definitely me. I first heard the song called, "Rise Up" by Andra Day,  in a kids movie & immediately started crying.  The idea that I was broken down & tired felt so real to me. But I was learning how to fight for myself. I have been hidden for so many years and I couldn't find the fighter in me. But when I heard this song, along with everything I was learning, I decided to "walk it out".  And I rose. I was still afraid,

Jonathan Engel: Birth-9 months

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For those of you who have been waiting for an update on my family, here it is. :) This was 3 days before Jonathan was born  A couple of hours after he was born 4 days old 2 weeks old meeting Great Grandma Fran for the first time 6 weeks old. We moved from St. Louis to Kirksville so his daddy could do his internship & graduate with his Bachelor's Degree! 2 months old 4 months old 6 months old/first Thanksgiving & Christmas :) 7 months old sitting in the Rocking chair that was passed down from Grandma 8 months old This kid is now 9 months & 2 weeks old. This kid seriously loves his daddy! This kid is my love. He's got my heart & I'm truly blessed to be his momma! There are lots of hard days, but then we have those really good days that remind me I am truly blessed! <3

Suba Wedding 12-27-2014

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2 days after Christmas, I had the pleasure to take pictures at my friend Beth's wedding. It was raining outside, but we still got some fun pictures outside & mostly inside, but were still fun :) Hope you like these Beth! :) Gift from the groom Trying to get the flower girl to try on the wedding dress. :) Dad seeing his little girl for the first time all dressed up in white. The guys getting ready. Beautiful bride inside & out! The first time this groom saw his bride coming down the isle. <3  Look at the love he has for her in his eyes! Daddy giving his daughter the last hug as his little girl. Giving away his daughter to her new husband. :) First kiss ever!!! They saved their first kiss for the moment they became Mr. & Mrs. Suba!  My husb